Forward Momentum

Finished all my pre-requisites and secured my seats in Criminology @VIU September 2011. I'm not a big fan of sitting in a classroom and I worry that I won't be able to stand 4 years of university, let alone commit to another 3-4 years for my Law degree. But, I haven't given up on the idea either it would mean a lot to me if I can complete the goal and have a wonderful career.

It was struggle trying to finish my initial classes, I only attended 1-2 ABE courses per semester and tried to prepare my family for my absence in advance, but it was futile. The more I pushed for my own independance after being a fulltime Mother for 8 years, the more needy they seemed to get. Then they turned on me like jackals. How dare I have a life and not be at their beacon call, what a bitch! Regardless I shall persevere and let the chips fall where they may. I have no regrets, but resent the lack of support from the ones I love the most.

This has been a stressful year for me academically and personally. Now I have 1.5 months off for the summer and I'm single. So I'm building my life back up from scratch, it's been interesting to say the least. I managed to get stuck in a rut of misery and I became someone I hated, that woman who said and did things to cover up the truth, to pretend like everything was okay when it wasn't. I've become that sour woman who was left to carry the weight of the World and is now consumed by resentment after chronic disappointments. So deep in denial until it finally came tumbling down and refused to be ignored. I've broken free from the lies and now I'm in pursuit of that person I knew long ago who had a lust for life and found joy in the simple things.